This is a ONE page report on me in the psych ER. Sobering.
Does this blog reflect what is written here? Is it a matter of "my side"/"their side"? This is how the doctors at the psych ER saw me on two separate days (in one report). I could search this blog to find what I may have written at the time. By the way, I looked it up, "anhedonia" is lack of emotion. A bipolar person without emotion? I do remember being this way, I think, however. An odd state to be in for sure. For sure, these two entries in my psych. medical record is a sobering look at my illness.
10/28/2015
Suicide ideation with a plan: Consumer denies
Danger to Others Worksheet
Severe anxiety symptoms/agitation
Employment instability
Impulsivity
Lack of insight
Currently manic or depressed or psychotic
Relationship instability
Lack of social support
Static Risk Factors
Low socioeconomic status
Aggresive or destructive behaviors
None
4/20/2015
Dynamic Risk Factors
-Severe anhedonia
-Severe depression
-Hopelessness
-Suicide ideation or intent
-Suicide plan
Static Risk Factors
-Mood disorder
-Psychotic disorder
-History of suicide attempts
Agressive or Destructive Behavior
-Suicide Attempt
-Suicide ideation
4/20/15: Clt endorses SI w/plan to overdose on prescription and OTC medications. Clt reports two aborted suicide attempts earlier this evening, one in which she had 30 benedryl in her hand ready to take but decide4d not to and once she had 50 zyprexa in hand. Clt was unable to contract for safety with this writer when a crisis plan was attempted.
9/16/15: Clt endorses SI w/plan to jump from balcony or crash car. Clt reports that early today she was standing leaning over the balcony for "awhile" contemplating jumping. Clt mention s that she thought she may be able to fly and if not she was aware this would probably kill her and reports "I was ok with that as long as I didn't have to feel like this anymore".
Here is another page from my psych. medical file
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